To Life, Fate, Destiny..the works...

So much for your promises
They died the day you let me go
Caught up in a web of lies
But it was just too late to know

I thought it was you
Who would stand by my side

And now youve given me, given me
Nothing but shattered dreams, shattered dreams
Feel like I could run away, run away
From this empty heart

You said youd die for me

Woke up to reality
And found the future not so bright
I dreamt the impossible
That maybe things could work out right

What I've Done

A new song from Linkin Park. From their new album - 'Minutes to Midnight'. Nice video. And an awesome song...



What I've Done lyrics

To My Friends....

Now that you all are away, I guess this is my way of expressing how much I miss you all and how much fun we have had....especially in the last 2 years....so here's to all of us:

The Grey

Smoked out grey cells. Impotent intelligence. Its like facing the full blast of a typhoon. But then why had I to venture out and pee in the face of the storm? The backlash is numbing. A subtle yet evil grin. Mocking me. Devouring my misfortune. An affluent addiction. Raping my mind. Stripping my soul. Demeaning my existence. Bullying by body. The blistered heart braves this monster. Discovering my n-dimensional endurance. Will it suffice? Dissolving the brain in the cranium. Do I even have the time to realize? Or is it already to late? An alien comfort. So volatile. Leave it and breathe. Else blood will seethe.Walk faster, no run! Faster! Its closing in. Your last chance...

Haze

Days of glory,
Days of thunder,
When did they pass,
I sit and wonder...

The listless life,
Is a stagnant river,
Crooning the dirge,
In a cold fever..

Launder my karma,
Purge my sin,
Keeping the sabbath,
Hoping to win..

Fate is not mine to keep,
Nor is there any luck to borrow,
I seek solitude to weep,
Seeking to drown my sorrow.

Grayscale rainbow,
Boiling beer,
Even the smallest things,
Dont seem right here....

A crappy lunch,
Is a sadist bitch,
She takes you by the tongue,
And throws you to the fitch...

A skinny latte,
And a smooth drag,
Just little smiles,
No more to brag...

Angelic deeds,
Like floating weeds,
Slowly move over,
Forgotten forever...

Blood to wine,
In the holy grail,
Makes little difference,
To this life so frail...

Like drunken stupor,
A slow dizzy phase.
Like the omnipotent Sol,
Will someone lift the haze?

Dirge for a broken heart....

Stuck in a pit of helplessness,
I need to exhale...
Pangs of unconsciousness,
When all attempts fail.

Exhausted in this wild chase,
I have nowhere to hold...
Dead end staring stark in the face,
And all the walls are stone cold.

The silence is too loud to take,
Don't have the strength to keep..
The happiness I try to fake,
And the sorrow begins to seep.

They say events in life are freak,
Dunno how, to those eyes, I fell...
The words dont seem to speak,
What the heart wants to yell.

I dream of a better time,
Better place, for hope to appear,
Till then the heart will be a mime,
Wanting for these thorns to disappear.

B.C. Sutta...

This is as from the heart as it comes..... Unwinding at the place you like. Your bestest buddies are with you. The music is your saviour. All problems seem to dissolve with every sip. The one you love seems close to you. The music flows more through your blood than the boooze. It is as if its played as a precis of your life. The sutta is your 'mashaal'. The rejections and ironies of life are but jokes for the night....all over a sutta.... B.C. sutta....

Adios 2005...

2005 wasn’t something to write home about. Shitty and uneventful at that. No one landed on the moon/mars, no new country formed, no new target for the US, Intel didn’t come out with Pentium 5 and looks like it will still be a few years before Microsoft comes out with Windows Vista. On a more personal note though, many of you would beg to differ with me. Some of you went to far away lands, got married, got a job, lost a job, etc. Well, I too got a job, but that was as exciting as Sonia Gandhi speaking. Nothing has happened this year that would make me sit up and take notice. My statistics could be estimated as listening to 1300 hours of music, drinking 100 liters of coffee and watching 10 crappy bollywood movies. But they say life is more than all this.
Looking back at 2005 makes me think all right. When I will look back at 2005 in 2015, it will be more significant than what it seems today. Cause at that time I will probably see the bigger picture and I don’t mean 53-inch plasma. Cause 2005 is just a small piece of the giant jigsaw puzzle that’s this life. And maybe many tsunamis and earthquakes and Iraqs later, 2005 would still occupy an important place in this giant puzzle. And as we move into 2006, dancing in farm parties or watching ad-laden movies on HBO, you and I are hopeful in some corner of our mind that our lives will be better next year.

Here’s to life and our future. Hallelujah.

Happy 2006. Goodluck and Godspeed.